The Next Step

By Dr. Sean Carey, Modern Mystery School Guide and Chiropractor

A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.”

As initiates within this sacred lineage, we have before us the opportunity to live a life of true light and magick the way very few in history have had the opportunity to do. Before 1997 and the opening of our lineage to the public, this access to the deeper mysteries was never available to the public.

As an initiate, you are able to study some of the greatest and deepest mysteries and secrets in the world from true masters of their craft. There are studies available to you such as Enochian Magick, Shamanism, Kabbalah, Alchemy, and so much more. With so much available, sometimes it can seem overwhelming. What will create the most magick and positivity in your life?

The most powerful tool and deepest magick we have available to us is the path itself.
 

Each initiation marks a step forward in the beautiful dance of alchemy. A letting go of who you used to be, and an awakening of eternal aspects of your divine nature that were long forgotten. Each step propels you to higher levels of divinity and self-knowledge.


When I became initiated 9 years ago, I had the profound realization that what I was learning on this path was so far beyond any of the studies I had previously done. I have always loved to learn, but no matter what or how much I studied, it always felt like I was missing something. 

Intellectual knowledge falls short on many levels. It doesn’t address the soul, spirit, or true depth of who we are as divine beings. When I became initiated, with every class, healing, or field of study; I found myself unlocking deeper aspects of myself. My life was changing in an amazing way, without me understanding exactly how. What was unfolding for me went way beyond intellectual. Without knowing it, I was experiencing the deepest magick available, the alchemy of the path.   

On this path, so often we want to be able to look ahead and see the future, to see what will be brought into our lives if we choose to walk forward. Oftentimes this leads us into the realm of dreams or fears, and can distract us from what we ultimately need to do. 

Fortunately, we are not alone, and there is an incredible structure to guide us. The Hierarchy of Light consists of many angels and other beings of light are always here to support us on this journey and help us clarify our next steps. So often as humans we want to argue with the light, giving human reasons and excuses as to why we cannot move forward. It takes true trust in the divine and surrender to the light to accept that the Hierarchy has understandings that we don’t have, and if they are guiding us to take that next step forward, we would be wise to take it.

If you allow yourself to listen to the nudges from the Hierarchy and take that next step forward in faith while staying in the present moment, you will allow the ultimate magick of the light to work through you into your life. If you are truly in the present moment, then so is God. And if you are truly trusting God, God is always there with you. Trust, step forward, and live a life of miracles. 

With love,

Dr. Sean Carey

 The Art of Knowing Thyself

Kristina Yannotta, Modern Mystery School Life Activation Practitioner, Videographer 

Art is very much a part of our lives, whether we are very drawn to it or don't give it much attention, it is everywhere and has been a part of  human existence since the beginning. I have always loved art, but could never really understand why I loved it. I also didn’t really understand why I gravitated towards certain pieces and types of art more than others. For example, I love art that came from the Renaissance era but I could never put a finger on why. In films especially, there are some shots that I will look at and study more than others. 

This is also true for many other people. There are reasons why certain paintings, sculptures, music, films and other forms of art are still talked about as being masterpieces. For me, it wasn’t until becoming an initiate and taking classes like Sacred Geometry 1 and 2 that the power of art finally clicked. In Sacred Geometry, we learn that the language of God is numbers, letters, and sounds. The form of Sacred Geometry is like a crystalized idea from the mind of God - and that divine shape is the backbone of the creation of art. 

Linear perspective is what gives paintings like ‘The Last Supper’ by DaVinci, or ‘School of Athens’ by Raphael, the illusion that the painting has depth to it. This is achieved with the use of lines that form triangles (as we learn in Sacred Geometry 1- triangles are a primary key). One point perspective also utilizes long triangles to create an anchor point in paintings like ‘Bedroom in Arles’ by Van Gogh.

In film composition (seriously, google film composition and click images, it's gonna blow your socks off…at least it does for me), the backbone of any style of creating a shot in film is  shapes. The rule of thirds, which is a grid of squares, is the first rule  of film composition taught to videographers. Some other commonly used rules of composition are the golden ratio, which is the golden spiral (based on the Fibonacci sequence) and the inverted Y, which utilizes depth of field to make it look like you are looking at the corner of a cube. 

We gravitate towards certain art more than others because art is a reflection of who we are as God. Art that embraces sacred geometry and uplifts all of us, whether we are aware of it or not, to our Godhood, allows the light to spread more easily.  

After becoming a Ritual Master, I noticed that my discernment around art became stronger. It started to become easier for me to feel when art lifts my soul’s awareness as God. Humanity has, generally, lost its connection with God and this  shows in much of the art being created today. A good majority of mainstream art today does not seek to reflect our Godhood. Instead, it consists of pieces such as hitting wet clay with a microphone to see what it sounds like, nailing words to a wall, or a specific arrangement of trash materials - it may be interesting, but not something that uplifts humanity like true art – art that is based on conscious use of sacred geometry and art that is focused on God.

Since art is very much a reflection of the conditions of society, we as Initiates, Ritual Masters, and Healers, have the duty and privilege of reminding others that they are God. Being on this path of Initiation makes it easier to create and identify true art when we see it as we come to know ourselves more deeply. One powerful way we can do that is through the art we create. God is art, we are God… let’s make some awesome art that will remind others that we are more than just this meat suit! 

Warrior of Light: The Call to Heal and Forge a New Legacy - Embracing Hermetic Wisdom for Personal Transformation

Dr. Nick Penzarella, Modern Mystery School Healer and Teacher


Brothers and sisters, today I stand with you not as a commander but as a comrade on the rugged path to self-discovery and healing, guided by the timeless wisdom of Hermetic teachings. Our journey as men transcends the conquest of lands or adversaries; it's a quest of profound significance — a journey inward, illuminated by Hermetic principles, to conquer our inner turmoil and emerge as architects of a new world.

Let us advance, not as soldiers of conflict, but as Warriors of Light, carrying the torch of healing and the standard of hope. Together, we will navigate the terrain of our souls, emerge triumphant from our internal skirmishes, and stand as the foundation of a new reality — one anchored in the healed heart and the enlightened spirit.

Within the quiet battles of the soul, each of us harbors the scars of our past, the weight of unspoken traumas, and the whispers of ancient wounds. Yet, it is within these scars, through the lens of Hermetic wisdom, that our greatest strength lies. Here, we find the key to our liberation and the blueprint for a world reborn in light — a world of understanding and compassion. Guided by Hermetic Principles, we embark on this sacred quest not just for personal healing but as a duty to forge a legacy of enlightenment and harmony.

The Call of the Inner Warrior: The Duty to Heal

Now is the time to wield the sword of introspection, to delve deep into our essence, and confront the shadows lurking within. This quest demands the valor of a warrior and the wisdom of a sage. The Hermetic Principle of Correspondence, "As above, so below; as below, so above," reminds us that the harmony we seek externally must first be cultivated within. As we heal, our relationships are transformed, reflecting our inner wholeness as we become sanctuaries for all who look to us for support and love.

The Mind's Dominion: The Power to Shape Reality

The Hermetic Principle of Mentalism, "The All is Mind," teaches us the formidable power of our thoughts and beliefs in crafting our reality. Let's channel this force, refining our thoughts with the precision of a master craftsman, transforming our experiences into beacons of wisdom and strength. This spiritual and personal evolution carves a path toward our highest potential, guided by the luminous stars of our deepest truths.

The Legacy We Forge: Breaking the Chains of the Past

The remnants of generational cycles echo of the struggles faced by our forebears and litter the battlefield of a man's life. Guided by the Hermetic Principle of Cause and Effect, we recognize that each step towards healing initiates a ripple capable of shattering these age-old cycles. We stand at the forefront, the pioneers of a new legacy marked by resilience, emotional intelligence, and steadfast courage.

The Rhythms of Life: The Dance of Harmony

As we march to our unique rhythms, the Hermetic Principle of Rhythm invites us to embrace the cosmic dance of balance, the ebb and flow that permeates all existence. Healing teaches us to move gracefully through life's tides, finding serenity amid tumult. This equilibrium shields us and lights the way, inspiring those who walk in our footsteps.

Brothers and sisters, our call to arms is one of peace and construction, of nurturing change rather than wielding the swords of destruction. When we heal ourselves, we lay the cornerstone for a realm where love prevails, where bridges of understanding unite us, and where the full spectrum of masculine and feminine potential is realized in our collective essence.

The Modern Mystery School is a beacon of light in this sacred mission. It bestows upon us the ancient tools and wisdom for our voyage. When we step into healing others, we find solace for our own wounds, and embrace the profound truth that in giving, we find healing. Ascending the Tree of Life through the Universal Kabbalah, we unlock the portals of insight, scaling the heights of our boundless potential.

These are the tools of our truest battles, the instruments of our metamorphosis. They unlock the fullest expression of our essence, propelling us toward our highest selves. In embracing these teachings and healing our inner realms, we carve a path to the peak of our being, where each man can don his crown, woven from the threads of wisdom, strength, and compassion.

What is Spirituality? The interplay of religion, spirituality, and philosophy

By Madison White, Modern Mystery School Guide, Healer, and Teacher

There are a lot of stereotypes that come with being a "Spiritual Person". A lot of people think that you have to be vegan, listen only to meditation music, burn incense, and always have a positive attitude, etc. These, like all stereotypes, are limiting because they not only pigeonhole us, they also lock us out of a wider definition of life. If we don't “fit in”, then we aren't “spiritual” and a whole swath of life experiences are therefore unavailable to us.

Let me take this opportunity to burst your bubble...

If you've ever wondered whether or not there's a higher intelligence...you're spiritual.

If you've ever wondered why we're here, why the Universe, why ANY of this exists...you're spiritual.

If you've ever wondered what happens after we die...you're spiritual.

If you've ever wondered where your thoughts come from...you're spiritual.

“A spiritual person is someone who is investigating what is beyond the physical.” -Sovereign Ipsissimus Dave Lanyon

What if being spiritual simply means that you were interested in the investigation of what is, and what goes on, beyond the physical? What if it means exploring beyond what we can see, touch, taste and feel and asking about the HOW and the WHY?. I know this seems Philosophical.Philosophy plays a huge role in it.

You could say that Spirituality has two branches: Religion and Philosophy

Religion is the practice, the “how” to worship, or how to interact with the Divine. When we're investigating something,we want to understand, see, be closer to, and experience more of it. So, religion is the particular practice of coming closer to the Divine, or what is beyond this world. Religion is the practice in which we become closer to God, whatever you want to call God in whichever religion you choose.

Philosophy, then, is the exploration of the “why”. Why does the universe operate in the way that it does? Why do men and women behave in the way that we do? Why are we so interested in what's beyond the physical? Why do we feel this universal pull towards deeper thinking, beyond the obvious and mundane...what is there? What are we looking for?

Together, religion and philosophy  create a spiritual practice. These cannot exist without one another, for one informs the other. We use religion to bring us closer to the philosophical questions we ask, and in turn our philosophical quest is what invigorates our religious practice.

What is a Spiritual path?

There are many, perhaps thousands, of paths for exploring the phenomena and mysteries of life. A path, by definition, is a way that has been made by others before you. We follow a laid out trail because the evidence of footsteps or beaten down earth leads us to believe that this path will bring us somewhere. The more worn down the path, the better chance that it’s a good path, meaning that the trek is manageable and leads to a desirable destination (even if it's only back to yourself *wink*).

As an Adept Initiate in the Lineage of King Salomon, you have taken that first step along an ancient path—and many of you have taken more when you received your second Initiation at Healer’s Academy and further initiations by becoming a Ritual Master.

To do this, you followed a Certified Spiritual Guide in the Lineage along what was hitherto an unknown path. A Guide exists to make walking the spiritual path easier and more predictable. Note: I said easIER and not easY. 

Any worthy path is not easy, because while the path is laid out for you, the path will also lead you inward, and THAT terrain is anything but tame.

What is the purpose of a Guide?

What we're looking for in any religious, spiritual, or philosophical quest is a deeper connection to ourselves. They are intimately intertwined. One cannot begin to dive into the deeper mysteries of the Universe without learning the deeper mysteries held within. And one cannot reveal the deeper mysteries within without gaining a grander understanding of the world around us.

Your Guide is there to hold the Light for you, and reflect the inner essences of life back at you. Your Guide has already trodden the path laid before you. They may not even be that much further ahead of you, but they are further enough along that they can look back at you and say "I know, I've been there, there is more, and you will get through." And really mean what they say.

The Guide in the Lineage of King Salomon stands at the doorway of Initiation onto the path. The Guide chose to do this work; to step forward and hold, protect, and shine the light for others to find their way home. 

What is Lineage?

Lineage is a line that is traceable through generations. Any charlatan can say they can do and provide anything. What are their credentials? From whom did they learn? Where did their teacher study? As we talked about before, the ones who have walked the path before us are to whom we look for guidance, and the more people who have walked that path, the more likely that the results are good.

The Lineage of King Salomon has a traceable lineage going back over 3,000 years directly to King Salomon. The core system of teaching known as Hermetics within the lineage actually traces back to Hermes Trismegistus, a quasi-mythical figure whom we in the Mystery School claim lived approximately 8,000 years ago. The initiations themselves, along with the Kabbalah, are said to have been handed to the first Humans to live on our planet by the Angels, as a pathway home to God while still alive in physical bodies. We use the title “Lineage of King Salomon” to honor the work that Salomon did to upgrade and bring our lineage into a coherent system, and that he established it in such a way that we have a written record of physical lineage from teacher to student since his time.

Why does Lineage work?

Imagine you inherit your great, great, great, great, great grandmother’s cookbook with recipes that have been unchanged for generations. Would you go in and immediately change the recipes? No! You know the best results are going to come from doing it exactly the way it is written because that’s the way that dozens of members of your family have done it and have had good results. If you respect and honor and love those family members, you have reason to believe their recipes were part of their lives well lived. Perhaps, when you use that cookbook, you can even feel their presence in the pages and the flavors, connecting you with those foundations and enhancing or enriching your life.

Lineage is like that cookbook, it works because it has been time tested with proven results— more than any recipe you could find from a stranger on the internet or intuit and create on your own. For some people there exists a desire for expedient, efficacious, powerful results. That is what lineage gives us: access to a framework to effectively accelerate progression and evolution as a spiritual being. 



Changing the World Through Your Example

By Ariana Bain, Modern Mystery School Guide, Healer, and Teacher

"The world is changed by your example, not by your opinion." ~ Paulo Coelho

It is 2024 and, as you may have noticed, the world is in a time of great transformation that does not look pretty nor graceful. This is a time of the acceleration of energy. A time when the impacts of our choices reverberate much more clearly and quickly. A time when the world is filled with many good people, with many good intentions, and yet, somehow, things are seemingly more chaotic and polarized with each new year that comes.

So many people want to know what they can do to make the world a better place. Harnessing the increased light for good and changing the current trajectory will require a lot of people setting the example of fundamentally different ways to create change. With some help, this coming year can be a time when more people wake up to the possibility that your opinions are not helping anyone and that the energy you hold and the actions you take are what change the world.

As Initiates in the Modern Mystery School, how do we have a real impact? How do we make progress toward accomplishing our mission of Shamballa - world peace? How do we help the world remember that the future can be made up of all of us, rather than just some of us? How do we find unity through our immense diversity, rather than polarization?

Honestly, it is going to be a long while before we figure out world peace on a large scale. Holding your breath and hoping things change will not be a successful strategy.

You do have power to start to change things now and the first steps involve focusing your energy to create the most important building blocks for a better world: the foundation within you.

  1. Know Thyself: know your spiritual essence, heal yourself, and use deep spiritual inquiry to ask how you can best share this light with others.

  2. Take Inspired Action: bring your knowledge of self into the world in a way that aligns with your Higher Self, your spiritual blueprints, and your unique purpose.

Know Thyself

When you get receive Initiation into the Modern Mystery School, a unique new field of greater capacity is unlocked within you to begin to live as your Higher Self. In essence, you gain the capacity to become much greater version of yourself than how you had previously experienced life. If you put in real spiritual work over a span of months and years, you can harness the light and consciousness of your true spiritual nature to completely transform your life and illuminate the shadows of your subconscious mind.

Opening this pathway to your Higher Self, and consciously cultivating a life of light, hope, and service, is the most profound gift you can offer the world. We will eventually create world peace when a critical mass of people shift the entire realm of possibility in the collective consciousness by choosing the light, choosing their Higher Selves, and choosing service to something greater than themselves.

You are your greatest tool for transformation. The most important battle for making the world a better place occurs inside each of us. We can successfully anchor the light when we:

  1. Wake up every day and discern when our negative ego is leading us astray,

  2. Heal the subconscious mind and conditioning that keep us locked in patterns that keep us trapped in the past, and

  3. Learn to consistently choose what is aligned with our positive ego, Higher Self, and purpose.

As within, so without. You cannot influence the world outside you in a positive way while your inner landscape is a wreck. While there is breath in your lungs, this work will never be done. Every day that you put one foot in front of the other to anchor more light makes a difference. Each step makes the road wider and more accessible to the people who will follow.

Inspired Action

As Sovereign Ipsissimus Dave puts it so wisely, "You cannot share what you do not have," and "you cannot want something for someone else more than they want for themselves". Taking inspired action requires increasing your level of self-knowledge and having the energy and internal alignment of what you want to share with the world.

When you do the inner work first, there is a much greater chance of creating a truly positive impact from your spiritual blueprints, rather than unintended consequences or disempowering other people by trying to fix them.

Inspired action comes from translating your knowledge of Self and your unique gifts into something that others can understand and benefit from. Inspired action does not have to mean that you are doing work that is non-profit, charitable, or volunteer. You can take inspired action whether you are an entrepreneur, an employee, an executive, a creative, or a freelancer. What matters is that you bring your unique purpose into tangible actions in service to something greater than yourself.

For some people, this may look like great external accomplishments that society recognizes. For others, it may not be as visible, and you may feel more like a secret agent infiltrating unsuspecting new professional fields with light and goodness. Living in alignment with your Higher Self and your purpose in a way that brings you joy has an immeasurable impact regardless of how easily others can quantify it.

So, instead of setting resolutions or intentions this year for what you are going to do differently, consider asking yourself the following:

  1. What can I commit to doing consistently that will help me take steps to know my Self better?

  2. What is my best current understanding of how I can take aligned action in the world that will truly have a lasting and positive impact? And, how can I stay focused knowing that this vision will always keep evolving as I evolve?

These answers will carry you much farther than the resolutions that you have probably already dropped, and they might just start to increase your impact, increase your joy, and shift the tide of humanity towards goodness.

The Spiritual Essence of Beauty

By Marisol Salomon, Modern Mystery School Healer and Holistic Esthetician

What is the first thing that comes to your mind when you hear the word “beauty”?

Glamour? Fashion? Makeup? 

The media portrays that you can only be beautiful if you are young, have a certain body type, facial features, and perfect skin. Some people won’t leave their homes without makeup and won’t take selfies without filters. We have been programmed to hide behind these masks because we are afraid of being judged by others.

But the reality is that beauty isn’t skin deep - and makeup, clothes, and diet fads won’t heal the years of believing the illusion that you are not beautiful. Breaking down these illusions about beauty is where the real magick starts.

How do we break down these illusions? 

As Jordan Bain said in his recent article, “What is Spiritual Light?,” we need to bring in more light! Light transcends our beliefs and our minds and empowers us to discern the truth. One of the ways to bring in more light is through receiving healings from your guide and initiations on the path of progression. Healings and initiations help to anchor light into your physical being and facilitate a deeply transformative process of reconnecting you to your divine spiritual essence and life purpose. With every step in the process, you become more “you.”

There is nothing more beautiful than removing the masks you have been hiding behind, learning to love yourself, and freely expressing your unique spiritual essence and individuality as a God/dess in this world. This is the work of Knowing Thyself. And when you Know Thyself - it shows!

Many of us in the Modern Mystery School notice that we look more radiant, more youthful, more joyful, and more beautiful with every initiation received and every new step taken on this path of progression. It’s not an uncommon experience for strangers to take notice of all of the light that initiates carry and remark how beautiful and radiant we seem when returning home from programs. Our clothes didn’t change, our hair didn’t change, and our skincare routines are the same, but we shifted on the inside, and it’s always noticeable on the outside. True beauty radiates from within us and is the outward expression and the result of all of the healing work we are doing to bring our bodies, souls, and spirits into alignment and balance. 

My favorite part about the journey to Knowing Thyself is that it is a lifelong journey. A journey of remembering and rediscovering our innate beauty and learning to share that beauty with others. The longer we walk this path of progression together, the more beautiful all of us will become, and the more beautiful we can make this world!

With love,

Marisol

What is Spiritual Light?

By Jordan Bain, Modern Mystery School Senior Guide, Kabbalah Instructor, and International Instructor

Light. What is spiritual light? How is spiritual light generated, or, perhaps more accurately, brought into our lives?

Where does the Light come from? In the Mystery School, we say the Spiritual Light available to us comes from En-Sof, a being who is not really a being, but who is also not not a being — En-Sof is a plenum of emptiness, a Source of All, having no qualities but containing all qualities; holding all of existence within itself, and lending its Mind and presence and being to all things always, existing within all things, and yet not defined (nor even altered in fundamental nature) by any thing. 

En-Sof is the substance of the quantum field, the etheric web of life, the essential substance behind all matter, all life. We are part of En-Sof and also not, all at the same time. En-Sof is in everything but its essence, if it could be said to have an essence at all, is also no-thing-ness, nothingness. And yet it is full of everythingness, goodness, and light simultaneously. 

It is quite a paradox and yet has no contradictions whatsoever within itself, for it could not have contradictions and still be En-Sof. It unfolds itself through the Seven Hermetic Principles, and manifests in all life as the most essential force that drives all existence.

So how do we access and work with this Spiritual Light of En-Sof?

Good news: it’s always already here. Yet being so essential, a quantum consciousness of reality is required to access it. How do we obtain this kind of consciousness? The Path of Initiation that we are already walking upon as initiates in this lineage gives us the reliable tools to do this.

Our primary tools in the Mystery School lineage give us layers upon layers of the right kind of access to the quantum field, the Mind of En-Sof, in the right ways and at the right times for our individual development as we progress.

These primary tools are:

  1. Rituals

  2. Meditation

  3. Prayer

  4. Healing

By employing these 4 basic tools, at the right times and in the right ways, we progress on our path of knowledge, understanding and wisdom of how to harness the Light in the best ways: to find JOY in our lives and bring JOY to others through SERVICE.

Service is defined in the Mystery School as the authentic promotion, acknowledgement, transformation, and confirmation that someone is God. Service is the result of the correct use of our tools, and functions as the reminder to us and to those we serve to live in JOY. Joy is the authentic remembrance in each moment that you are God. Of course, as we find true Joy in knowing thyself as God, in the same moment we find true peace, because we are in alignment and living in flow with who we truly are, and that peace cannot be replaced through any other means.

When we use our tools, regularly, intelligently, and creatively to further our joy and service — not mindlessly like robots doing rituals because someone told us they were “good” — we discover that new possibilities which never before seemed available open up for us, layer by layer.

These layers of new possibilities contain more Light, and therefore more potential for Joy, because they were unfolded as a product of the tools of Light. The Light serves the Light in the Light to generate more potential for Light, which means life improves and becomes more Godly, more Good, more meaningful.

Why does it work like this? HOW does it work like this?

When we use the tools, we notice potentials in the quantum field, in the plenum of emptiness that is En-Sof, potentials which have always existed, but now can come to AWARENESS because we have harnessed ENOUGH LIGHT to NOTICE that they exist. 

The field is always a quantum reality, and part of the meaning of quantum reality is that is responds to observation, to awareness.  Without awareness, it’s like the potentials don’t really even exist, or at least so it seems to us.  Maybe we see others around us having good potentials, but perhaps we aren’t seeing those similar potentials in our lives.

In order to open up more positive potentials for ourselves, we need to harness, build, and hold the Light, in order to have the quantum awareness of the potentials that reside within the field for us.  We of course must match the vibratory frequency of the potential in order to be aware of it — we cannot truly access a potential if we do not already hold its frequency within us.

If we wish to hold the right frequency, well, the bad news is, often, this is a LOT of work.  We generally do not come to the Mystery School with enough awareness to even know where we are right NOW in the vibratory spectrum of the quantum field, so we don’t know how much work we have to do to get where we want to go.  Complicating this further is the fact that most people don’t know thyself enough to even set their sights correctly yet on where they want to go.

It is often a humbling journey again and again to discover, layer by layer, what we TRULY desire even for ourselves. This journey has no beginning and no end, just eternally more and more layers to it, leading us from wherever we are to a greater life of more joy and peace and meaning.

Any time you feel stuck in the field, use your tools, diligently, intelligently, creatively. Talk with your Guide — your Guide is your Guide through the Quantum Field of Reality. 

Reach out to your Guide, text or email or message them, and ask for their assistance. It is one of the greatest gifts you have ALREADY given yourself, the gift of hiring your Guide when you got initiated.  And they will always be there for you to assist you in overcoming the blockages you find in your experience of the quantum field.